Sunday, October 22, 2017

Does the World Make You Feel Plain?

I love Sunday mornings.  It's on this day that I languish at the computer more than any other day of the week.  My craft room/office is the sunniest place in the house and I love spending time in here.  Sometimes I just lean back in my chair, stare out the window and think.

Since I've had so much time on my hands lately, I do a lot of thinking about my life and where my journey has taken me.

I'm 57 years old and by some people's standards, I probably haven't accomplished a lot.  I was in my 50's before I bought my first home and I was also in my 50's before I broke the $50,000.00 a year mark in income. In today's economy, that's probably not the fortune that my mind always thought it would be.

I had my first child, unmarried, at the age of 19 and had two more from a single marriage that was destined to fail....and it did.  I'll tell you about my Mister later on. 

We grew up poor and I knew we were poor.  I remember my grandmother dragging us to the thrift stores looking for clothing and other items and I remember how much I hated it.  

Our cars were old,  as was most everything we owned.  We rarely bought anything new and we squeezed every bit of use out of the things we did have.  

Of course, back then, people repaired things.  We didn't live in the disposable society we do now.  I remember replacing the tubes in our TV sets and they even had repair shops to repair things as small as a toaster.  Our appliances lasted longer.  I remember my grandmother having the same washer and dryer set for 20 years.  Nowadays, you're lucky if you get 10 years out of an appliance. My washing machine, for instance.  Less than 10 years and it's done.

This morning I'm what?  I would love to go back to those days and I wish I would have had the wisdom to see just how wonderful those days were.  If I had, I would have enjoyed them instead of struggling to get through them.

It's worse now, but I think even back then, people thought they needed more.....something "better".  I wish I knew where that came from.  How did keeping up with the Jones' start?

What if I never go any further than I am right now?  What if I just settle for how things are now and never work to get "ahead"?  I think it's ok, because I'm exhausted and stressed with trying to make sure I have the recommended million dollars I will need to retire "comfortably".    I think I could be comfortable on far less.

I think living a simple life is being ok with not having everything the world thinks you need to have.  To be satisfied with an uncomplicated standard of living.  To be OK with what you see in the mirror......mediocrity.  

Who can keep up with the world?  Why should I want to?  

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

Saturday, October 21, 2017

My Quote Book Keepsake

All the chaos of the day has finally come to an end.  The grands have had their dinner and are quietly playing video games with their dad in the basement.  It's my quiet time now.

I came upstairs and sat on the edge of my bed and saw my quote book on the dresser.  I picked this up a few years ago at Michael's...not for any good reason....just because it was so pretty.  I know I'm not the only one who's ever done that.

The pages are lined, but plain other than that.  I had it for a while before deciding what to do with it.  I was reading some quotes on Pinterest and ran across one that I wanted to remember.  So it hit me.  I will use this book to write down quotes and wisdom that I want to remember. 

Some of my entries are....
  • I  don't know how to do this, but something inside me does. 
  • If you don't know the nature of fear, you can never be fearless.
  •  Pentecostals don't have sex standing up, because it could lead to dancing.  (A little Christian humor)
My intention with this is that when I pass on to the next life, my kids will have fun reading it.  I haven't shared with anyone in the family what I write in there, because it will spoil the surprise.

I have a few strategically placed things around the house that will leave them with good memories.  Is that weird?


Friday, October 20, 2017

A Great Day Out

It felt so good to get out of the house today.  The only part I don't like about these day trips is the traffic.  I'm not a city person and that's one thing I can do without.

We started at Coscto and I got the few necessities that I needed there and then we moved on to Trader Joe's.  If you have one in your area and haven't been, you should go!  Their prices are fair and they have a lot of things that you don't see in other stores. If I would have been thinking, I would have taken a cooler with me to keep things that need refrigerated.  Probably best I didn't though, because money is an issue right now.

I hadn't been to the thrift store in ages and so I asked my Mister if we could stop by and have a look.  I was so glad I did!  I found these and they are so beautiful!

There were only two, but I couldn't pass them up.  The picture doesn't do them justice.  They are so sparkly and I love cobalt.  I'm going to try and take another photo in the natural light.

There was still no money in the mailbox today.  I sent my lawyer an e-mail and told him that if something didn't show up in the mailbox tomorrow, I was going to call the state compensation insurance fund office on Monday.  He asked me to stay calm and that he would call the adjuster's supervisor on Monday.  

Maybe I do need to calm down.  The wheels of justice turn slowly as they say and on the bright side, when I do finally get a check, it should be a good one.

Tomorrow, they're bringing the washer that my Mister got for me.  Why do things like this happen when you can least afford it?  I'm just grateful that I have someone willing to help me out with it.  With my daughter and granddaughter living here with me, we really need a washer.

This one has no center agitator and I'm not sure how I feel about that.  Have any of you had experience with that style?  I chose this one based on price and brand.  The clear lid is kinda cool.  Never had that before.

After they deliver the washer, I'm going to pick up my eldest grands for a visit.  I haven't seen them in a few weeks and I need to.